dejected, terrified, hurt, and angry...

I hate being condescended to.

I also hate having my emotions belittled.

Twice today, I have conversed with people I trust unequivocally, and once I was told to "just relax," and once I was told to not turn the feelings that I'm having into something "more than it is."

I'm overwhelmed by a whole lot right now, personally and professionally, and all I have to say is WOW.

Not to be unappreciative or rude, but these replies are a little less supportive and a lot more patronizing than I had anticipated. I’m not letting my feelings turn into something "more than it is." What I'm going through right now is already pretty freaking huge. My ENTIRE LIFE is changing direction a whole hell of a lot more than I ever imagined it would.

And I don't know if anyone can understand how terrifying that is, but I would hope my friends would at least try. I feel so very alone for the first time in a long time.

And I’m just NOT okay right now. I know I will be, and hopefully it will be soon, but right now I’m freaking out.

And quite frankly, I think I’m entitled to.