Insecurities

I am about the most insecure, self-conscious person alive.

The second I do something slightly stupid (which happens a lot...), I want to run and hide and stick my head in the ground and disappear forever.

I'm perpetually embarrassed of myself, and I spend half my life apologizing. (And it's irritating as hell to those who know me.)

It's just that I feel that if I run away and hide, everything will eventually be okay, and I won't have to feel as idiotic as I do at that moment. I know that doesn't make sense to anyone else, but sometimes it seems like the only answer to me. It's all I've ever done.

And I'm sorry for being so shrouded by this timidity and lack of confidence. I'm really going to try to do better.